what do you want me to be?

The best of times but also the worst
I knew it would end, how could it not
we found each other, but from the start we were lost
and the battle was over, but it was never really fought
complicated has never been so simple
I knew I loved being with you
but in our passion, there was a constant crinkle
something was wrong, and there was nothing left to do
but to end it, and I knew it hurt
even though you never told me
we had to stop, before we got caught
but through it all Im not sorry

I could be the best
or I could be the worst
I could love you unconditionally
or I could treat you like nothing
What do you want? dont say your sorry
Ill be whoever you want me to be

We felt a tug, and went with it
and it was bumpy and it hurt, but we had so much fun
I knew you werent good for me, but you had so much wit
I ignored the warnings, and cursed them when we were done
you hurt me, but the hurt was so good
and I wont forget you, but I know I should
so kiss me again, if you dare
and hold my hand
dont act like you dont care
its too late to make that stand
I dont care if Im your man, or the other
as long as Im near you
and dont say its the truth, when it couldnt be farther
so look at me, tell me now, what do you want me to do?

I could be the best
or I could be the worst
I could love you unconditionally
or I could treat you like nothing
what do you want, dont say your sorry
Ill be whatever you want me to be

is this really just a fling?
your showing and telling, every cut and every bruise
as we sit in the night, on your swing
and you show me pictures, so I can see everything you lose
what you had, when you were a kid
and where it all whent
and why it is that sometimes you lose your head
and I know your broken, not just bent
so how is this a fling
cus it feels like the furthest thing
I know too much about you
for it to be possable to think your just to screw
and you know so much about me
that when Im gone, your not happy
so what do you want, dont you dare say your sorry
Ill be whatever you want me to be

glass bottles

When I heard of the broken bones and shattered glass
all I could think of was hurt feelings and bruised pride
and the cold empty space it left between us
and the good chance that you could have died
and no one understood, why it was exactly that I was so upset
I think what it was is realization
as I thought of us while watching the sun set
and nothing scares me more than this one consideration

We hold our lives in glass bottles
and they are oh so fragile
we fight and survive so many battles
but thos bottles can be smashed without a struggle
and theres nothing we can say or do
that can save us when our time is through

when we fought last night
like we always tend to do
and when you left, I was overcome with fright
because I know my realization is true
What if you bend so much, that you finally break
and the last thing you heard me say is "I hate you"
and you never realize how much is truly at stake
and you never know, because I never said "I love you"
itd be so easy right now to apologize
but I fumble and struggle to pick up the phone
I just sit in bed and agonize
and you wont know how much you meant to me, all youll know is that tonight you died alone

a lesson in smoky air

when you left, I felt so broken
how you just gave up, and all our problems were left unspoken
all you said was that we were done
and all you could say about us was that its been fun
but you just couldnt feel the same
and you were already with someone that was much less lame
I went up to my room and could not stop crying
and the tears stopped only when I started sleeping
I thought Id never get over you
but I found out just last night that wasnt true

her name was katlyn or maybe kristyn
Im not sure, all I know is that she was fun
she was too drunk to walk, but she sure could grind
and she left, but in the end I didnt mind
in the dim lights and smokey air
she taught me not to care
when she touched me, it didnt matter
and she didnt care how my hands touched her
we drank, we laughed, we kissed, and then she left
and she never once made me feel inept
in two hours, we became so much closer
than you and I ever were in the two years that we were together
she taught me, that in love, time doesnt have to matter

the wind blows in the trees

The wind blows in the trees
as we run and giggle
I tag her and she screams
and she laughs as if she'd been tickled
we're no older than five
she picks the crumpled fall leaves out of her hair
I had never felt so alive
as I did when she was there
we go to her house, drink apple juice and watch scooby-doo
and I knew at that moment that there was no were I would rather be
having fun, and we would never run out of things to do
there was never anyone that meant so much to me

The wind blows in the trees
and we sit on a blanket, our feet buried in the sand
as we just lay and stare out along the beach
I ask, she refuses, so I pick her up and carry her off dry land
she screams and she giggles, playfully smacking my back
it starts to sting but I pretend not to notice
as I throw her in the water and listen to her splash
she comes out of the water, and I lose focus
she smiles, then she tackles me, into the dark abyss
and although I cant see, I reach out and feel her soft skin
I knew then, that there wasnt a moment with her that I could stand to miss
I knew that this would be a moment where I would remember when

The wind blows in the trees
and I look around, no one in sight
I watch her scream and swat at a bee
and I watch, mesmerized at the way sunlight reflects off her hair
I knew then, that the time had come
my best friend now, my best friend forever
I was nervous, if she said no, I would have been anything but numb
but I could not stop myself, I knew I loved her
she cries and she smiles, "of course" she sais
she gives me a warm embrace, and I feel tears touch my neck
I should have known, but I could never guess
the way this girl could turn me into such a wreck

the wind blows in the trees
but I cant hear it through the shut window
your in bed, Im beside you and theres no were Id rather be
I cry, and wish you didnt hurt so
I do my part, Im there when you wake
I pat your hand, I do all the right things
You smile at me, but your half baked
I crack open the window, to listen as a bird sings
I turn around, and watch how the cancer eats you, and it finally ends
I smile for your sake, knowing that you have spread your wings and flown
I go home that night and drink, accepting the condolensces it lends
and I thank the Lord that your pain is done
I close my eyes, and its not the moments that we missed that I see
its those warms summer days that we would sit and listen, as the wind blew through the trees

Why I love you

I love you when I wake up and see the sun rise

I love you when it goes down, and the stars come out

I love you, even when I'm forced to accept your lies

I love you,even when you scream and shout

I love you, when we talk for hours, and run out of things to say

I love you, when I'm forced to accept that we can never really be together

I love you, more and more every day

I love you, because with every blow our love grows that much stronger

I love you, and I hate the circumstances that have almost crushed our love

I love you, even though most people tell me that it is a mistake

I love you, even though I know I don't say it enough

I love you, even when you tell me that you need a break

I love you, and the way your hands embrace me when I need you

I love you, when I need you and your not aware

I love you, and I don't think it matters what you do

I love you, when I want to kiss you but I will not dare

I love you, even though I can't help you right now

I love you, and you can tell because I'll always try to be there

I love you, and when it comes to loving another, I don't think I know how

I love you, even when I can do little more than stare

I love you, because you can never be replaced

I love you, because I know the pain I feel right now is neccesary

I love you, because I feel my best in your embrace

I love you, because I forgive you even when your not sorry

I love you, because I would sacrifice everything for your smile

I love you, because to protect you, I'd be willing to die

I love you, because to be one inch closer to you, I'd walk a mile

I love you, and you don't even have to try

I love you, for your triumphs, but for your failures just as much

I love you, because in my heart I believe you came into my life by fate

I love you, because nothing makes me feel more alive than your touch

I love you, most of all, because I'm willing to wait